When I wrap you in my arms
And imagine you so small,
I see the growing that we’ve done,
And wonder at it all.
How they handed you to me,
and the day we left,
I remember it so well,
So many feelings bereft.
Our start was not what I imagined,
And I had flashbacks of that day.
I was so afraid to lose you,
So frightened in many a way.
And when we got home,
It felt like being lost at sea.
We had no one around,
It was just you, your dad and me.
But we fumbled through it all,
Through tears, anger, shock and laughter.
Day after day we grew,
Until the present became our ‘after’.
The anxiety subsided to a hum,
The shock it slowly wore.
We all grew stronger, closer,
Till the pain of it was no more.
And yes I still hold grief,
For what happened in that time.
The feelings imprinted on memory,
But thankful you’re here, you’re mine.
And every day I wake to see,
Your beautiful smiling face.
Watching you grow and journeying with you,
Is a privilege I can’t replace.
So thank you for picking me,
For making me your mum,
You’ve changed my life forever,
It’s through you I’ve truly become -
The person that I need to be.
Stronger, braver than I ever knew.
It’s through you I’ve found myself,
Breaking, moulding, growing anew.
